This new EP is turning out to be the most difficult record since my very last experimental album in 2004.
I can’t sleep or eat. I am depressedin the bad way where instead of being able to draw inspiration from it I have too many thoughts to keep up with and no motivation to write.
The songs I have so far are the best I’ve written in forever. They are deeply personal. The lyrics bring me full circle to my first songs. The language is vague and I use a lot of big words. It reminds me of Billy corgan’s lyrics.
The music goes in a different direction. It’s part heavy like my old music and part of it draws heavily on new influences like Make Believe and the Joggers.
I wrote all the music and lyrics at the airport in Long Island but of course 5 songs written in 36 hours are going to need revision.
I feel like retiring Felix and Friends and doing something new. Maybe join someone elses band. Maybe give someone a good backing instead of always having to be the sole creative force. Or maybe this is a part of the creative process and it’ll pass. Maybe the subject matter is getting to me.
These are the lyrics to the first song I’ve recorded so far for the new EP. It has a lot to do with my recent vacation.
“Anticlimax”
Trains designated by letters and numbers
Instead of colors took me underground
Snaking my way beneath the city
I wished the ceiling would collapse
And bring down the overrated skyscrapers
Turning them into subterranean ruins
Scaling stairs into sunlight
I had arrived. Now what?
Walked for miles
The butterflies in my stomach fueled me
And when I laid eyes on you
One word: anticlimactic
I was supposed to - what?
Who knows but it didn’t happen
I kept pressing my button
But a fuse must have been blown
I kept plucking my heart strings
But they were tuned to a new key
And right then, before you had a chance
To think the misguided thoughts you eventually did
And long before I even realized it
I was transported to the year 2009
… Finally
Lyrics written at the airport waiting to go home and I wrote the music on the piano app on my iPhone before I transposed it to guitar
New EP coming out soon. Gatsby’s Disappointment is finished but stuck on my hard drive in the computer that won’t turn on so I’ll either have to scrap it, rerecord it, or wait for my computer to be fixed so I can release it again.
Fitzgerald’s Pride was supposed to be the second half of the album which was meant to be a double disc. Most of the songs are written but none are recorded yet.
Since I don’t have a computer to work with I’m going to have to record this new EP on my 4 track. This EP is a concept EP just like Gatsby/Fitzgerald is. The concept has a lot to do with my trip to New York. As soon as I get a chance to transfer my songs from tape to CD I’ll give a bunch of copies away then start looking for a venue to play
I have writer’s block. I suck right now. FAWM is gonna slip away!
FAWM is on! So lets get crackin’!
New record coming soon. These songs are going to be my best work yet
If the Ashbary has open mic on new years eve I’ll be there. I’m getting ready to record some new music. Stay tuned for some songs!
